Last week, we joined a gym. Planet Fitness to be exact.
The first gym I ever joined was right after high school. I had just dropped out of college (I had been there 2 months) and had decided to take time off, get a "Real" job and figure things out. On my way to work there was a women's gym called "Lady Fitness." This appealed to me because at the time I was extremely shy and insecure (I still am, but way less so) and I just wanted to workout and get healthy without the idea of any boys being around to see me sweat and look awful with no make-up.
I signed a 2 year contract. $25 a month. I thought my mom would kill me.
I went to this gym a handful of times.
The next gym I joined was Planet Fitness. I joined with a group of work friends almost 10 years later (from the first gym membership) and mainly joined because it was cheap and there was no contract. I went more regularly to this gym. I canceled and rejoined a couple times as I saw fit.
Fast forward 2 years later (I got married and moved to another city) and I am now the heaviest I have EVER been. I bought the largest size jeans I have ever bought only a few weeks ago. As I sat in the dressing room I thought, I gotta DO something! Anything!
So here I am, rejoining Planet Fitness, this time with husband in tow.
The first week I went twice, Thursday and Friday (I joined Wednesday).
Now it is Monday and I forgot my gym bag (the bag I packed the night before) at home. I realized this as I was driving into work. My gym is close-by work and 30-45 minutes from home. So I have a conundrum.
Do I drive the 30-45 minutes home and get my gym bag and come back? Spending an outrageous amount on gas doesn't sound appealing. OR do I skip Monday and make it up later (like going in on a Saturday)?
These are the little obstacles that can make or break a new fitness plan, particularly for someone like me.
I am 100 lbs overweight. I like food. I like sleep. If anything stands in my way of that gym, I am done for. (So says the gremlins in my head) Google gremlins and Brene Brown for more info.
And here is another thing....I AM 100 lbs overweight! I tell people this and they look at me like that's impossible! Maybe because I'm taller I carry weight differently?
I am 230 lbs and I should weigh 130-150 lbs. I have been 130-150 lbs much longer than I have been overweight and I KNOW that that is my healthiest.
I am not trying to be model thin.
I want to be able to pick things up off the ground without hurting.
I want to be able to walk up stairs without feeling light headed or out of breathe.
Anyway, I have to figure out how to get in a workout today without the gym. I have to learn to adapt to any obstacle and not get upset when I can't do what's "comfortable".
I mean lets face it. I am anything but comfortable 24/7, what's a little more in order to get to where I need to be?
Thanks for reading! I would love your thoughts!
